My life in baby steps

For most of my life food has presented challenges for me. I did not know, as a child, that I used food as a weapon for control. As an adult I realize when presented with a challenge I am stubborn and usually not willing to back down. But also being a gentle person I prefer little conflict so the passive aggressive approach worked.

You can't force me to eat ( arms folded across my chest), you can't make me like this (chin jutted out)!!!

Well as we all grow and mature food becomes an enjoyable part of life. Not for me, I refused to try new things and soon social eating became uncomfortable.I have avoided these situations most of my adult life.

Now, as I work on Diane, how I see myself and what matters about how others see me, I am not so concerned by social functions involving food.

This brings me to the most heartwarming moment of my day.

Food day at work...... Yay not!!! Our team ordered Chinese food, not gonna happen no matter how much growth I experience!! 

Not feeling uncomfortable, I offered mine to my cubby mate. Hey, it is my treat and I love to give!! So that was that and I moved on. 

First thing in the morning my boss came me and made sure I knew that if the team orders food I am not eating she is happy to by my lunch separately.

While I have worked with her for a long time I don't know that she is aware of how deep this touched me. 

The team gets a wider scope to choose from and I feel less uncomfortable!!

Go Diane!! Go progress!! And Go get the next win!! I got this!!!