A reason for it all

In a conversation today a significant event in Kaylana's life was discovered. In eighth grade there was an Art teacher who was not able to engage my daughter in her class. This resulted in two parent teacher meetings (joy).

During one of the meetings the teacher informed us that if Kaylana continued to fail the class she would not make anything out of herself in life.that eventually file bankruptcy. I was so taken back and angry that I did not say anything.

At the same time Kaylana was becoming so involved in basketball that I think it bothered me more than it did her.

That year Kaylana played basketball and then helped run stats and help mentor the younger players as they began their season.

I wonder if her love of photography would have been discovered if this teacher had been allowed to impact her creative side!!

What a thought!!! I love basketball and now I have one more reason!!

Singing with woodland creatures

There is a scene in Snow White where she is singing and happy, all the birds and woodland animals surround her to enjoy the way she embraces the day.

I wake up like that, every morning, ask my daughter, it drives her nuts. No matter what is going on in my life I approach a new day with the belief it will be a good one.

It takes a serious amount of crap for me to end up feeling like the evil step mother, mirror mirror on the wall, with hands outstretched offering the poison apple so Snow White can suffer and be as miserable as she feels in her cold heart.

Today lived up to that horrible image.

If I could change anything it would be having more balance, I get so bogged down by the negativity around me but to not care when things are so terribly wrong, to want to fight for solutions and change is who I am. 

So tomorrow I sing with the birds and frolick with the squirrels and hope that feeling lasts just a little longer than it did the day before!!

Realization

Cornered, claws out for protection

Imaginary foes all around.

If only the mind would shut down, but no, this is worse.

Thoughts overflowing, criticism, pain, no praise for small victories only lectures on what should have been done.

What could be worse than an imaginary fate? Reality. And when it is, the mind builds, foreseen problems so much worse, this to avoid surprise, to avoid pain and to continue to assess blame.

Today, a small victory and a small grain of hope. Is this the block that begins a foundation to live by? Hope says yes ❤